at some recent point in my life, i fell into the belief that i am probably one of the best persons everyone in my life will ever meet. if not the dominant self-view, its influence quite often surges to the top of my head, especially when i'm thinking about people i have tried to connect to, but for one reason or another, have fallen short on.
i know that i have enough friends. i have even more acquaintances, i know. the issue is where the two groups cross. there are many acquaintances i am honestly upset about not knowing better. there are many people in my life who i can imagine to be incredible people, but i don't feel i have quite connected with enough to know.
i wish i could hand pick some people to have bonding experiences with.
i appreciate all the people in my life that i have bonded with. i am not lacking. i am just selfish. i want more. i like good people. i feel like i am missing out when there are good people whom i don't know well.
is that weird?
i am a good friend. i am fun to have around. i interact well.
let me into your circle.